The sun is shinning in Nova Scotia once again. If you can hide from the North wind that still reminds you it's April, it's actually really nice out. I've spent my last few days headache free. The last one was a doozy so I guess my brain tumour is taking it easy on me. I'm ok with that. Feels fantastic to have my hands in the dirt pulling weeds from the garden, raking leaves and just sitting in the sun like a cat. This new found "energy" that the sunshine gives you is still short lived as napping and raking seem to go hand in hand. I have finally surrendered to the fact that my days of pulling a full work day, then a full "Moms" work night are over. Lots of things don't get done around here anymore and that's OK. If only half the floor gets swept, so be it, the dirt will be there tomorrow. Sadly I'm having a hard enough time keeping up with this, I haven't even added the 8 hour work day yet.
The Easter Bunny hopped into our yard this year and brought a large trampoline. My kids are over the moon with excitement and enjoying this new toy. I got on with TJay and we held hands and bounced together laughing like kids, I can't tell you the joy in this. Small things when you have a serious illness are everything. The following day my kids had me on once again. You know those moments as a parent when you say to yourself, I need to breathe this moment, etch this moment, live this moment as it is beyond special. That was one of them. Watching them bounce and the two of them laughing at my inabilities was priceless. They are my everything and are proof that God gives us gifts of love in the form of children. I paid in the form of pain that afternoon and the following day, feeling like I probably shouldn't have "played" on that trampoline. However, I wouldn't change those moments of sheer joy for anything.
As I type this I hear the giggles and the squeak of the springs of that trampoline. I'm missing moments and although we can't capture them all, my plan is to do my very best. Enjoy today's sunshine, laughter and above all health.
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ReplyDeleteWow. You are a potent writer. I am in awe of your strength. Thank you and TJay for allowing me to read this.
ReplyDeleteHi ! Just seen your interview on ATV. So awesome you are participating in the Sprint. Like you I was diagnosed with a meningioma last August and had a craniotomy in Moncton in October. I have been fortunate to have it all removed, but the emotions in the whole process were a rollercoaster and still raw at times today. I go for a followup MRI this summer, just waiting to get the date.
ReplyDeleteJeanette, I'm sorry I just saw you post now. I'm so happy that you were able to have a full resection. You are correct, the emotions of this roller coaster are difficult. I hope your follow up MRI is perfect!!
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